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  “I’ll be right back,” she said, looking at his brothers. He watched her walk into the crowd and got that funny sensation in his chest.

  “We made some serious progress tonight, and also gained a lot of information about how much she’s been holding inside,” Aldreck said aloud.

  “That ex of hers did a number on her. You guys know this isn’t going to be easy. She’ll need time, patience,” Hill said.

  “Exactly what most of us don’t have a lot of. Fuck, I don’t want her staying alone anymore,” Manderine admitted, and Flex looked at him, still sitting on the bench and feeling the warmth of Autumn’s body turning colder by the second. He rubbed his thighs, loving how it felt holding her, inhaling her scent, caressing her curves. She was sexy as sin and then some. A protective, possessive sensation had him standing up and looking for her. When he didn’t see her right away, he stepped forward.

  “She’s by the bar, heading his way now,” Hill told him.

  “Jesus,” he said on an exhale and ran his hand along his jaw. “I don’t want to leave her.”

  “She isn’t ready to make love to us, Flex,” Aldreck said to him.

  “I could just hold her. Never done just that with a woman before, but with her I could,” he admitted then cursed and looked away.

  “Okay, I’m all set,” she said and looked at them. Flex started walking. When they got to the truck and started piling in, he felt the hand go to his forearm. He turned around, not realizing he must have had a mean look on his face because she pulled away and started stepping back. He slid his arm around her waist and pulled her into an embrace. He inhaled against her hair, ran his palm along her ass, and squeezed.

  “I don’t want to leave you tonight.”

  She exhaled as if relieved. “I don’t want to leave you either,” she said and he pulled back, squinted at her.

  “What are you saying?”

  “I don’t think I’m ready for more than what we did tonight. I have some things to work out. Some fears, some feelings, and I need to gain control of the flashbacks.”

  “Maybe it would be a good idea to talk to someone. A therapist, you know?” Hill said to her.

  “I haven’t talked about the things he did to me, the effects they had on me, to anyone. Tonight, with you guys was the most I shared really. Bridget and her men only know the circumstances of why I left and ran. No one knows the pain—”

  She gulped as tears filled her eyes, and Flex cupped her cheek. “Don’t, it’s okay. Maybe you can draw some strength from us. From being cared for and held by us.”

  She smiled softly. “Your hugs are pretty darn powerful,” she whispered and he winked, lowered his mouth to hers, and kissed her. When he released her lips he lifted her up into the truck, and she slid along the seat to sit next to Hill who drove.

  Autumn was nervous, yet she felt like she could trust these men. Hell, she did trust them, and she was getting past the intimidation of their sizes, their hard expressions and hard bodies, but there was no minimizing the desire that was building up inside of her quickly. She thought about exploring a little more. Letting them touch her more intimately, and feeling their mouths against her skin, and her heart raced.

  “Invite us in, Autumn,” Hill said to her as they parked the truck by the garage and apartment. He stroked her jaw, then tilted her chin up toward him. He pressed his lips softly to hers. It was a gentle kiss, a short one that left her feeling dazed a moment and whispering an “Okay.”

  Hill offered her a hand, letting her get out on his side and slide down his body, his palm moving under her dress. “Jesus, Autumn, are you even wearing any panties?” he asked and then nuzzled against her neck. He started suckling her skin and squeezing her ass cheek.

  “Of course I am.”

  “Barely any. I can’t feel a thing.” He stroked a finger along the crack of her ass and then against the string of her thong panties.

  “Christ,” he said and hugged her to him. He moved his hand, fixed her dress, and then walked with her. How the hell she even walked after that, she didn’t know. When they got to the top of the stairs, Aldreck asked for the key. She passed it to him, and he unlocked the door. They walked inside, and she shook even more. She tossed her purse onto the coffee table and then put some distance between her and them.

  “Want something to drink?” she asked, taking in the sight of them as they looked around her place and then at her. She felt it. Over every inch of her body, she felt it.

  “This is a nice setup, and big, too,” Hill said as Manderine walked closer to her. These were men. Older, experienced, military men. They had this look in their eyes that was a force to be reckoned with. Connor didn’t have that look. His was evil, bad, negative in every way. It was so different from these men who were soldiers, and Manderine and Aldreck who were police, too. She didn’t want to compare them. She also didn’t want to be immature here and not give them what they deserved and needed. After all, they were a lot older. She could turn them off if she were to hold back for too long. Did she want to hold back though?

  Manderine was in front of her, and his hands went to her hips. “Sweetie, you okay?” he asked. Her voice cracked when she spoke.

  “Better than okay,” she said and smiled. He gave a soft smile, too, a dimple appearing out of nowhere in the right side of his cheek. She stared up into those bold blue eyes, that blond crew cut hair, firm jaw, and absorbed the feel of his big, warm hands pulling her closer right before he leaned down and kissed her. She kissed him right back. Absorbed the feel of Manderine’s hand sliding up under her dress to her ass, to her back before he lifted her up and placed her onto the island in the kitchen. He pressed between her thighs, lowered her down to the island, and they made out like teenagers, battling for control and moaning as the desire, the need grew deeper and deeper. She pushed away any thoughts of Connor, of his demands, his abusive tactics, and just let things happen with Manderine. When he released her lips he slid his palms along her thighs, pushing her dress up higher. His brothers all gathered around them, leaning forward, encasing the area with their big, sexy bodies.

  “More, Autumn?” Manderine asked, sliding his palms up and down her thighs to her hips, then entwining his fingers with the string of her thong panties. She stared up into his eyes.

  “Maybe a taste, to help you get used to our touches, our tongues?” he whispered then lowered down to kiss her lips as he slid her panties down her thighs.

  “Manderine.”

  “Not too far, just what you’re comfortable with,” Flex said to her and cupped her cheeks from behind her. She tilted her head back to look at him, and when he pressed down to kiss her, Manderine removed her panties. A moment later she felt his fingers slide along her groin and then to her cunt. He slid a digit in, and she moaned into Flex’s mouth.

  “Nice and easy. You relax, baby. You let us show you how real men take care of their woman and bring her nothing but pleasure,” Hill said, and she felt the fingers unbuttoning her dress.

  “I love this dress. Nice and convenient for this moment,” Aldreck said as the material parted, and she heard their words just as Manderine replaced fingers with his mouth. Flex released her lips, and she moaned and lifted up.

  “Sweet Jesus, look at this sexy body our woman has,” Hill said, and she looked at him as she panted for breath.

  “Oh God. Oh.” She moaned and came as Manderine suckled and nipped her clit.

  “Delicious and so damn sweet,” Manderine said and lifted up to kiss along her belly, then the cleavage of her breasts in the tight bra she wore for support, and to her lips. He spoke against them.

  “You are perfection, Autumn. Absolute perfection. Will you let my brothers taste you, too? It’s all about sharing and being equal. About caring for you, pleasuring you in every way. No more pain ever, Autumn. Not ever, with us.”

  “My turn,” Flex said and she nodded.

  “Can we take this off?” Hill asked her as he eased a palm along her breast and bra. He
squeezed the mound and then lowered his mouth to her cleavage from the side. “Can we?” he repeated.

  “Yes,” she said. Even though she was shaking and unsure, the power of this connection, the desire and need were growing by the second.

  “Like unwrapping a gift from heaven,” he said and unclipped her bra just as Flex licked her cunt and spread her thighs.

  “Oh!” She moaned aloud. Her bra unclipped and her breasts emerged.

  “Holy fuck, woman. You hiding these from us?” Aldreck asked. He cupped a breast while Hill cupped the other, and then both lowered their mouths to them and feasted. She was overwhelmed, shaking, moving her body, and coming. Manderine was behind her. He cupped her head and cheeks.

  She looked up at him. “Manderine. Oh God, I can’t take it. It feels so good. I feel too much. I’m scared,” she said.

  “Don’t be scared, baby. This is so fucking real. We want you in every aspect of the word. We want to commit to you, make you our woman, be your guardians, your friends, your lovers, your soul mates, everything and then some to you. We want to take away the memories of the pain, of feeling negative and incomplete, and make you feel loved, cherished, protected. Just say yes, baby. Say yes to it all,” he said, and she cried out another release.

  “Yes. Yes, yes, yes, I want all of that. All of it with you and your brothers.”

  “Oh, Autumn,” Hill said, releasing her breast. Manderine smiled down at her, and Flex kissed along her belly and right to her breasts and then her lips.

  “We promise to take good care of you.” She cupped his cheek.

  “I’m next to taste our woman’s sweet pussy,” Hill said, and she gasped, her face heated, and they chuckled.

  “Don’t scare the poor woman, Hill. She’ll need time to get used to our voracious appetites,” Flex said and stroked along her nipple and then down to her cunt. He gave her a wink and stepped to the side as Hill took his place.

  Aldreck kissed her lips and then lifted up. “All ours, and we’re all yours,” he said, and then she gasped as Hill slid fingers to her cunt while he smoothed one palm up her belly and chest to cup her breast.

  “You were made for us,” Hill said and then lowered his mouth to her cunt and began to feast. They went at it again, taking turns suckling her breasts, fingering her cunt to the point of her wanting more and more. As she came for Hill he suckled and licked her clean then switched spots with Aldreck. She was panting for breath.

  “Oh God, I feel so weak,” she said and then cried out as Hill thrust fingers into her cunt and then lifted her thighs over his shoulders before replacing his fingers with his mouth. She was panting and moaning.

  “Don’t worry, baby, you’ll get used to having four lovers. Four men bringing you pleasure over and over again,” Manderine said to her and pinched her nipple. They were wild, relentless, and as Aldreck got his fill, lowered her thighs, and then lifted her up and hugged her to him. She wrapped her legs around his midsection tight and squeezed him.

  “Please be real. Please,” she said and he squeezed her.

  “This is only the beginning, Autumn. Only the beginning.”

  Aldreck lifted Autumn up off the counter and carried her to the bedroom. He set her down before the bed and stared down at her sexy body, curves and all, and licked his lips. “We belong to you, too, Autumn. I need to feel your hands on me. Exploring me, and to know you want me like I want you.”

  “I do. Oh God, I do so much. I want all of you. I want to give you what you’ve given me. Pleasure, happiness, just be patient with me, Aldreck. This is all new.” She began to lift his shirt up by his waist. He helped her and tossed it off. When she stared at his muscular chest, his cock got even harder. Then she pressed her mouth to his skin as his brothers gathered around, pulled off their shirts, their shoes, and got comfortable and waited their turn.

  When she hugged him, her cheek against his chest, he was shocked. He felt so much and caressed her hair, her back. “Baby?”

  “Keep touching me, Aldreck. I need it. Need to feel you guiding me, helping me.” She tilted her head up toward him, her head barely at his chest. She was so petite in comparison to him. He caressed her hair, tilted her chin up toward him. They locked gazes.

  “I want to make new memories. New visions to replace the bad ones trying to interfere with this moment,” she said to him and then began to undo his pants.

  He stroked her a hair, then cupped her cheek. “Only happiness here in this room with us, Autumn. I need to feel more of you,” he said to her, and she undid his pants and pushed them down. She lowered her mouth to his cock and took a taste. “Sweet Jesus.” He exhaled, holding her shoulder. Trying to not grab onto her hair and head and stroke into her mouth to claim her, to feel more, to possess her in every way and know she was his and his brothers’ and no one else’s. He felt barbaric, needy, and he calmed his breathing best he could as she began to really suck his cock good and hard. Up and down she bobbed her head, and then Hill moved in behind her. She moaned over his cock.

  “You are coming like a faucet, baby. Your body knows you belong to us. You like us watching you suck our brother’s cock because you know we want that, too. Want to fill you up in every hole and claim you our woman.” She moaned louder and came.

  “So giving. Your body knows, baby. Knows you belong with us,” Hill said to her, and he felt his cock getting thicker and thicker. “I’m going to come, Autumn. You got me there, baby,” Aldreck said.

  “She has me there, too,” Hill said and continued to stroke her pussy from behind as he suckled against her shoulder. He was rocking against her as if his fingers were his cock. “There, baby. Fuck,” Aldreck said and grunted as he came. She sucked and licked him clean and he nearly fell backward, but Flex was there to hold him.

  “Oh God, Hill. Hill!” she cried out.

  Flex lowered to his knees, cupped her cheeks as Hill thrust his fingers into her.

  “Let us make love to you tonight. Let us claim you our woman as you claim us your men.”

  “Oh God. Yes. Yes, I want to try.”

  Flex stared at her and then pressed his mouth to hers. Hill pulled back.

  “Me first.” Hill lay on the bed and Flex released her lips. He lifted her up, and she straddled his hips. “Do we need protection?” he asked and stroked her jaw.

  “No. I have an IUD. Oh God. Is this too soon?” she asked him and he smiled.

  “No fucking way. Tomorrow, we go to the sheriff and we claim guardianship with him officially. That means no other men and no other women. Just the five of us, baby. A family.”

  He pressed his lips to hers, and she squeezed him tight before he turned her around to face Hill. Arms open wide, Hill smiled up at her. “I’m yours, Autumn. All yours,” he said. And they watched as she lowered her mouth to Hill’s lips and began to kiss him.

  Hill could hardly catch his breath. The feel of Autumn in his arms, her sexy body over his was overwhelming. He was older, had a lot of lovers, a lot of experience, but for some reason, this was completely different. He felt everything. From the way her feminine fingertips trailed along his nipple and pectoral muscles, to how her lips felt against his skin, he was oversensitive and receptive to it all. He caressed her ass, sexy, round, tight. She filled out a pair of jeans and even a skirt like no other. The fact that his hand could practically cover her ass added to the protective feelings he had for her. “You’re so damn beautiful. Let me look at you, Autumn,” he said to her, and she lifted up. Her big, full breasts were pressed against his chest as he cupped her cheeks and used one hand to stroke her hair.

  “Your eyes do me in every time. I want you to take me. To ease my hard cock right into that sopping wet pussy and claim me your man, baby.”